"I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ."

Poor Harold is sick today. He left work early to go to the doctor, but thank goodness Leona is the doctor. She took good care of him. I told him to request the steroid injection that I got last time I was really sick, because it got rid of side effects immediately..then he is going to pick up z-pack and some sort of prescription nasal spray on his way home.

I slept like shit last night. I fell asleep really easily which was nice, but then around 12:30 I woke up, wide awake, and with that feeling of an oncoming anxiety attack. I have no idea why..but luckily after about an hour I fell back asleep. Today however, I was a force to be reckoned with, lol. I am very rarely a bitch but today I was in one of those moods I guess because of how I slept.


Sometimes people are naive fucking idiots. Now, I'll be the first to admit that I'm not religious really. I grew up Christian though, so I know allllll about what sort of person Jesus is supposed to be. A lot of stupid republicans claim to be christian, and us liberals are horrible evil people that are going to go to hell. So here is some stupid conversation that I saw on facebook today:

A GIRL ON FACEBOOK:   My proud big sister moment: when explaining to my 8 yr old sister how we shouldn't say we hate people because Jesus says to love everyone... She replies, we even have to love Obama??!... I say even Jesus makes exceptions to the rules sometimes! :)

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    Nathan Ward Funny and can say that He doesn't love that POS lol ..that is funny

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    Ashley Flowers-Lash I'm not really religious anymore, but Nathan isn't that quite contradictory and non-christian like to say that? I'd say if Jesus is in fact the man he is said to be, he would be quite ashamed of someone saying that.

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    Nathan Ward I totally agree but that is my personal feelings not Gods ..this man should not be in office. I personally appreciate the comment but unless you know me you might not understand my conviction and the pride I have for my country but not our leader. America needs to wake up and yes he tells us to love so on that you are correct.

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    Amy Mailot Rochus Awwww! That's our little conservative! Yay, Faith!

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    Amy Mailot Rochus And Yay, Big Sister!

     

    
    

That's right folks! The original poster said she had a proud moment telling her little sister that she should love everyone because that's what Jesus wants..THEN proceeded to tell her well, not Obama, because Jesus would allow exceptions. Then my favorite: Some asshole then says "LOL that's funny, Jesus wouldn't even love that piece of shit"

Seriously folks..If Jesus is in fact God's son he would not NOT love someone just because their political views might differ, and he sure as hell wouldn't say "Love thy neighbor, except the person you don't like because you're too stupid to think for yourself and are a republic" 

On that note:  Here is one last example of idiots that are Christians...one of the funniest quotes I saw about this on the news was

"Not to delve too much into the religion thing here, but I’m pretty sure Christians can convince themselves that God likes just about anything they’re doing as long as they talk to him about it first. Have a little chat, “is Christian pole dancing okay God? We’re mostly going to listen to upbeat Christian rock and dance together like we would in a strip club for exercise, yet worship you at the same time. That alright? Okay good I’m glad you understand.” I mean not to be an asshole or anything, but throwing on some Jesus music doesn’t really change the fact that you used to pop your coochie in the air and give lap dances and blowies in the champagne room for dollar bills you know what I’m saying? Whatever helps you sleep at night lady."

I'm done bitching for today. In the words of a wise man "I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ."
Mohandas Gandhi

Life...it is unexpected

Since I last posted a few dramatic turn of events have happened.


First...let me start with the most traumatic thing. On Saturday, January 8th, my step mom (47 years old) Sonja suffered a major stroke. I found out and went up to help the family and be with her the next day. For the first day I thought she was going to be ok. She was in an induced coma so that they could keep the brain less active. Following a stroke, the brain swells for 72 hours. That is when the most damage can occur. The swelling was very bad, and did not seem to be stopping. Tuesday night they performed an emergency surgery on her skull to allow for the fluids to drain better, and allow her brain to have a little more room to swell. Things took a turn for the worst the next 2 days and she became unrepsonsive. On Saturday the 15th, she was declared brain dead.

She is missed dearly by many people. And while some people may not understand why I'm so affected by it, since she was in fact, my step parent...what they don't understand is my father and her have been together since I was just 6 months old. She has been in my life for 26 years, and it's very hard to even think that she is not there anymore. I still am very shocked by it when I think about it. Her obituary can be read here.

My Aunt Jeanne is still battling breast cancer. I'm waiting to find out more today actually from Grandma. Jeanne had her mastectomy in February, and while they performed it they took out many lymph nodes. It turns out over 14 of them tested positive for cancer, and they say that they do not know if the chemo she'd been going through did any good. The size of the tumor had supposedly grown instead of shrink from the time they began chemo. She went in for testing last week, and this week will begin radiation treatments.

My mom and the boys moved back to West Virginia at the end of February. This is the first time in years that Harold and I are finally alone. While I miss my family soo much, I must say that it is nice to have some privacy and alone time now. I think for the first time since I've been alive, my mom is okay with being "alone" and just wants to be happy for herself and the kids. This is a major shift in her thoughts, because normally she always thought she had to have a man to make her happy, when the truth is, they are the ones that have made her miserable for years.

Harold and I are taking off a week together next month, which is very needed! I would like to try and go visit my dad and family the first few days of my vacation, then come home, but we will have to see. It depends on a few things.

As usual, life is throwing a bunch of shit at me..but I'm in relatively good spirits. I'm not feeling extremely depressed, and I am a little stressed, but I'm able to deal with it as long as I take things day-by-day. I've had some insomnia lately, which is totally new to me because sleep is one thing I've never had problems with in the past. I have found though that Ambien helps it. I know that I shouldn't depend on that as my only way to get a good nights sleep, so I try to usually not take it more than twice a week. Maybe this is just a phase, and it will go away..I really hate this restless feeling.

More later...