Since I last posted a few dramatic turn of events have happened.
First...let me start with the most traumatic thing. On Saturday, January 8th, my step mom (47 years old) Sonja suffered a major stroke. I found out and went up to help the family and be with her the next day. For the first day I thought she was going to be ok. She was in an induced coma so that they could keep the brain less active. Following a stroke, the brain swells for 72 hours. That is when the most damage can occur. The swelling was very bad, and did not seem to be stopping. Tuesday night they performed an emergency surgery on her skull to allow for the fluids to drain better, and allow her brain to have a little more room to swell. Things took a turn for the worst the next 2 days and she became unrepsonsive. On Saturday the 15th, she was declared brain dead.
She is missed dearly by many people. And while some people may not understand why I'm so affected by it, since she was in fact, my step parent...what they don't understand is my father and her have been together since I was just 6 months old. She has been in my life for 26 years, and it's very hard to even think that she is not there anymore. I still am very shocked by it when I think about it. Her obituary can be read here.
My Aunt Jeanne is still battling breast cancer. I'm waiting to find out more today actually from Grandma. Jeanne had her mastectomy in February, and while they performed it they took out many lymph nodes. It turns out over 14 of them tested positive for cancer, and they say that they do not know if the chemo she'd been going through did any good. The size of the tumor had supposedly grown instead of shrink from the time they began chemo. She went in for testing last week, and this week will begin radiation treatments.
My mom and the boys moved back to West Virginia at the end of February. This is the first time in years that Harold and I are finally alone. While I miss my family soo much, I must say that it is nice to have some privacy and alone time now. I think for the first time since I've been alive, my mom is okay with being "alone" and just wants to be happy for herself and the kids. This is a major shift in her thoughts, because normally she always thought she had to have a man to make her happy, when the truth is, they are the ones that have made her miserable for years.
Harold and I are taking off a week together next month, which is very needed! I would like to try and go visit my dad and family the first few days of my vacation, then come home, but we will have to see. It depends on a few things.
As usual, life is throwing a bunch of shit at me..but I'm in relatively good spirits. I'm not feeling extremely depressed, and I am a little stressed, but I'm able to deal with it as long as I take things day-by-day. I've had some insomnia lately, which is totally new to me because sleep is one thing I've never had problems with in the past. I have found though that Ambien helps it. I know that I shouldn't depend on that as my only way to get a good nights sleep, so I try to usually not take it more than twice a week. Maybe this is just a phase, and it will go away..I really hate this restless feeling.
More later...
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