After coming home from WV I have been in a fairly good mood. I got to spend a lot of quality time with mom, and was beginning to feel positive, which was a big change in my feeling of doom & gloom that's been looming in my mind for months.
Mom had two days of appointments in Morgantown this week. Tuesday was with Dr Bakri her oncologist that did her surgery, etc. He scheduled her for scans the following morning to scan her body and lungs, which is typical of any cancer patient, and done even more frequently with LMS patients. She also had a very in-depth appointment with her oncologist that is handling her Chemotherapy Dr Auber, in which went well.
Yesterday (Thursday) afternoon at work, my mom randomly called and sounded upset. Of course, I had an instant rush of panic come over me, and as I listened I went into shock. The doctor called and said that her scans revealed an Aortic Aneurysm that was growing and needed immediate surgery! First off, I didn't know what the hell that was exactly...and then of course, it is always scary knowing that anything that goes wrong it always crosses my mind, "what if it's actually cancer?!"
So I spent all evening in a state of shock, researching both aneurysms, and also, how LMS can grow in the Aortic Artery lining, since it is in fact, a soft tissue muscle. (Which is what Leiomyosarcoma affects)
They scheduled surgery for 7am, and I spent all morning trying to battle all of my worries... "How did she get this" "Will they postpone chemo now" "What if it's actually cancer"...etc, etc. Finally around 11 am I got a phone call from mom herself saying she was out of surgery and feeling well!!!
I guess they were able to go in through her groin, and up her artery, to perform the surgery. She felt well enough that she was eating around lunch time! They then mentioned doing chemo while she was already up there, but in the end did not do that. HOWEVER, they did let her go home tonight, which is absolutely shocking to me, but wonderful. They also scheduled her chemo treatment for Thursday, so as of now, things look to be back on track!
Tonight I needed an emotional break, so Leona and I went to Bahama Breeze and had some food, and some cocktails. It was very relaxing, and I have to say I am in a much better mode and frame of mind this evening, than I was yesterday.
Even before this whole cancer thing with mom entered my life, my life has been one big roller coaster. Each day can go from joyous, to scary, to dreadful, back to joyous. It's so crazy how many ups & downs one person can have. Right now is definitely another trying time in my life, I just need to be able to keep my center while riding one CRAZY roller coaster..
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