I had this anxiety when I first found out we were having twins...it's pure SHOCK. I don't think I've ever been so shocked in my life. I remember laughing like a crazy person, lol....as a few weeks went on I got used to the idea and the shock has worn off. Now I battle with a new anxiety...I'm anxious about the "shock" of when they are born.
I've wanted to be a mother for so long, and now, it's hard to believe it's actually going to happen. Now every little thing goes through my head (usually in the middle of the night) about how else can I prepare for them, what can I do to make their lives happier, what if this and what if that, etc. I'm going to drive myself nuts....but I'm guessing this is what it's like being a parent. Always worrying about your kids, even when they grow older. I didn't realize it would start before they even are done baking!
One promising thing: I called All Children's and talked to them about my concerns about not having an OB and how I want them to take over as my full time OB. I just so happen to have a scheduled ultrasound for tomorrow,wish me luck!!!
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