Enjoying the calm before the storm

On a non-baby note... my mom's cancer has came back. She had some pain, and what appeared to be a cyst, but after biopsy it was revealed to be LMS. She is receiving a high-dose regimen of AIM chemo cocktail...which is quite strong but is known to be one of the few effective against her type of cancer. She has had a rough couple of days because the "I" part of those chemo drugs caused her to have a reaction in which had her very confused/disoriented. She is slowly regaining that... I'll update more as I know it. I'm hoping this chemo helps in shrinking and stabilizing the cancer so that it may be removed...and especially so that she feels well to enjoy the babies being born. Her first grandchildren.

The calm before the storm....Lol... Well, they scheduled my c-section date for 4/4/2013. I will be exactly 36 weeks +6 days. That is one month +3 days from now. That means that is at the latest..when my/our world will never be the same. It already has changed. The girls are our priority instead of ourselves. We find ourselves spending all of our free time & (non free) money on things for them over us, and we love every second of it.

I've noticed I sit in the quiet a lot...it's kind of weird for me, because I'm such a music/tv/whatever lover. I often will turn on a tv just for background noise while I do stuff around the house. Now...it's opposite. I sit in silence at work, no radio most of the time. I find myself turning the tv way down all the time. I drive with the radio off.... it's so strange. I don't know why. I think maybe I'm trying to find an inner calm and some quiet before they are born. My sub-conscience must know what is coming... 2 little girls. From infants crying, to 4 year olds running around chatting and playing princess- peace & quiet is not in my future for a while lol.

I'm tired of being pregnant. I want to not only work out...I want to sleep comfortably; be able to unclasp my bra strap without pain in my wrists; roll over in bed without feeling like a full body work out; dry my hair in the mornings without getting out of breath; be comfortable sitting on the couch; make it a few hours without having to pee in the middle of the night..... the list goes on & on. I will miss the girls moving around in my belly, but seeing them and getting to touch them will totally make up for it!

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